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Cigarettes, salad and cereal

Life is going okay right now. I thought I'd give whoever cares a little update.

My hair is longer and darker now as you can see and I've started going out quite a lot, met lots of cool new people.

Me and Toni before a night out, I was pretty drunk haha

I'm now at college studying HNC Business and it's great although I missed out on the last couple of weeks because I broke my rib. I didn't even know it was broken for 3 weeks. I was going to Morrison's from my sister's place and being the lazy bitch that I am I decided to take a shortcut over a wall. So, I climbed up the fence to the top of the wall and threw my bag over before I even looked down. I'm not joking, the wall was around 6-6'5" on the side I climed up but around 8" on the other side. I had no option but to jump it. I'm not scared of heights but I'm scared of busting my ass and right below there was a massive bunch of bushes that didn't look too inviting or cement which, well... yeah. I thought it would be a fabulous idea if I somehow managed to lower myself before I jumped. I don't know why this seemed like I good idea but this is how I ended up...

I was like that for a good couple minutes. My fingers hurt but I couldn't hoist myself back up because I'm pathetically weak and I was too scared to jump in case I fell into the bush and it was still pretty high. I wanted to get lower and move to the side a bit so I missed the bushes. In the end I decided to go for it and I jerked forward in order to miss the bush but my god it hurt like FUCK. It was my sternum that hurt the most. I thought I was having a heart attack every 5 minutes for a few days. I eventually got a doctor's appointment a week or so later and she basically said I must have hurt my muscle but I'll be okay and told me to take ibuprofen which don't really help. Typically I get the flu a few days after my incident and let me tell you, it hurts so bad to cough and sneeze with a broken rib. After two more doctor appointments the new doctor finally tells me my rib is broken and gives me some co-codamol (codeine and paracetamol) to take which actually helps. Although I hate paracetamol, I'd rather just have the codeine thanks. It's been around 4-5 weeks and it still hurts from time to time but not as bad. Stupidly I took the shortcut again to prove a point and it turns out jumping from the very top isn't as scary as I thought. If I hadn't been so scared my chest would be fine.

In the last year I've lost a little bit of weight. I used to weigh around 132lbs but now I'm 124lbs! Yay me. I would like to lose a couple of more pounds or just get in shape. I say this all the time and never act on it or I do it for a week or two tops. I wish I just had the motivation. I think the reason I managed to lose the weight is because I changed a couple of things about my diet. I started by banishing all refined carbs and started eating whole grain, I eat a salad a day (although some days they're full of cheese and coleslaw, healthy) and I started drinking water much more and cut down on fruit juices. I eat so much cereal too now, I think that kind of helps. Like I said, I'm still not happy with my body - but what girl my age is?

I'm a little bit bitter about the last year though. I met a guy last year and quickly we began dating. He was very bad news and I really don't know why I put up with his bullshit for so long. He isn't even remotely attractive, like at all. I think I felt lonely and wanted someone but when you find someone when you're feeling like that it's not likely to be the right person. Unfortunately I still have to speak to him because of all the money he owes me but hopefully it won't be for long. I don't even hate the guy, I just don't want him in my life at all. I know I'm too good for him and he bothers me with soppy text messages about how he still loves me which is really quite funny. He needs to get over it. I'm just focusing on "me" again (like I ever stopped). I actually love being single and everytime I'm in a relationship I feel miserable. I'm young, why do I feel the need to "settle down"? I've decided I refuse to settle for less than perfect - why should I? You only live once. Why should I sacrifice my happiness in order to be with well anybody? I'll happily be single til the day I die rather than be in a relationship that I'm not 100% happy in. All the time we waste in pointless relationships is time we could be doing something important. I've decided if something doesn't make me smile then it has to go.

I've developed a really disgusting habit. I'm ready to admit I'm a closet smoker. I only started smoking because I felt a little craving when I didn't have green but now I smoke around 3-5 cigarettes a day. I don't even know why I do it, something is telling me to. If I have weed though I never smoke cigs. I think I just like the feeling of having something in my mouth (...hahah). I'm trying to stop but I don't want to stop blazin' so it's hard. What's a girl to do?

Oh, and I got my new bathroom fitted last week. It's lovely. My shower I had before was the most pathetic excuse for a power shower I've ever had the displeasure of washing in. This new one is all new and it actually shoots out water! It doesn't just trickle down the side slowly, it actually blasts out HOT water. I cannot believe I am this excited over a new shower.

So things are going okay, they're going to get better I decided. :)

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I think I'm in love with J.Cole

Well, his music anyway. I know he's hardly new news but I've been listening to The Come Up and The Warm Up constantly. I'm actually really excited for the release of a hip-hop album for the first time in quite some time. It was quite sad to see the lack of energy during his BET Awards performance - especially in comparison to the love they showed Waka Flocka and that news guy whose sister was attacked. Regardless, here it goes...

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The day I met Wu-Tang Clan...

Everyone who knows me knows how hard I 'Stan' for Wu-Tang. I was young when they first came on the scene (very young) but as I got older I became entranced by their music, their story and everything about them. I even got a Wu-Tang tattoo when I was 16. When I heard they were performing in the UK back in August - all 8 living generals - I literally jumped up and down! Everyone who knows me also knows how much I love concerts. I've seen some of the Wu before (Method Man, Ghostface, etc...) but all of them together? I had to be there.

I was so happy and relieved when I realised they were doing a show in Glasgow. This may not seem like a big deal but too often I have to travel to English cities to see my favourite acts so it's nice to see Scotland get some love. It was announced just before the show that Method Man was filming CSI:NY so he wouldn't be there. I have to say I was gutted because from Wu shows in the past he always gives most energy.

I'll skip the boring stuff and get to the show. We queued up around an hour before the show and expected there to be a massive queue but there was only around 5 guys. I usually dress up to go to a show because I go out afterwards and can't be bothered going to the hotel to get changed and I usually wear super tall heels because I'm only 5'5" but I went super casual - Chucks, skirt, leather jacket. It was nice to go casual for a change. The support was okay, I wasn't expecting. There was some white guy from Manchester I believe called "The Unexpectable" or something like that and Glasgow's own Kobi Onyame whose music I really feel. I know someone in the entourage from last year so I e-mailed him to see if he could hook me up with some passes to get backstage and luckily he did! I didn't see him before the show, hence why we had to queue up but when Wu hit the stage he spotted us in the crowd and gave us our passes - yay! I honestly don't remember the order of the songs that were played but they mainly performed joints from 36 Chambers. We went through the side door and chilled on the side of the stage for a while. I've met a bunch of celebrities before but Wu-Tang are my actual favourite rappers and for them all to be up there was pretty crazy. The guy in the entourage I know takes us backstage to get a drink and to blaze a lil. GZA came too. He was pretty wasted if I remember right - drunk, high, I don't know. Most of the show he stood at the side of the stage looking baked too. He was really nice and I got a picture with him.



After that we went back on the stage to watch the rest of the show.







(Note - I lost my camera (or it was stolen, well it is Glasgow) so I lost most of my pictures but luckily my sister took hers too!)

After the show ended we all headed backstage to party a little bit. It was pretty crazy being in a room with 7 of the Wu. It was fun though. We smoked a bit, drank a bit and I had to get a few pictures too.





(I can't be bothered uploading them all but that's me and my sister with Ghost and U-God after the show.)

We all headed back to the hotel later to party some more which was crazy. I have to say I ended up getting a messy combination of high and drunk. I met a couple cool girls from Glasgow there too, they were really nice. We were all in the room of the guy from the entourage I know. Ghostface, Raekwon and GZA were there as well as a couple of other guys coming in and out. I have to say it was pretty surreal partying with them and I was shocked how humble they all were. I've met some pretty rude rappers before but they weren't at all. I remember my sister disappeared and at one point I guess I fell asleep.

They were there for two days so we met up with them again although I was so hungover, tired and wasted that I passed out for hours. I could have been chilling with them but here I am sleeping on a bed. So typical. We had to leave early in the morning and I was sad we wouldn't get to meet RZA - luckily we saw him in the lobby of the hotel. It was pretty crazy, he was just in the hotel lobby playing this piano. He was really nice when we met and thought it was cool that we were twins. RZA is really into taking pictures, he took a few of my tattoo.



It was a cool couple of days.

They even gave me a free t-shirt. Boo-ya.

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Sarah, Sarah, Sarah...

I haven't been on here for a very long time and I've decided to make this my blog again.

A lot of things have happened in the past year since I last posted so I'll post a few updates on all that.

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